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This past Monday(April 7) my only brother, Cale, killed himself. Though it is hard for me to say, it is probably better for him this way. None of you knew, but he was bi-polar, had ADHD, anxiety problems, and and battled depression for most of his 16 years. He couldn't even hope for a mediocre day unless he took several mood altering drugs. He told no-one, left no note, and seemed normal all weekend and Monday during the day; as far as we know, this was a spontanious act. I can't eat, sleep, or take any comfort knowing that he is finally at peace. I keep telling myself that I'm done crying, but I am only kidding myself. I am not a religious person, but at times like these I wish I was. The funeral is this friday.
Funny that this is what it takes to bring the family together, everthing seems so petty. It has truly been the worst days of my life, and I fear that things aren't going to be right again for a long time.
[addsig]
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